Friday, January 15, 2010

My Inspirational Dreamers and Doers



My Mondo Beyondo assignment today was to write about who inspires me to take a chance on my dreams.  The first person to come to mind was Oprah, but when I gave it a second thought, I realized the person who quietly realizes dreams, one after the other, is my husband. 








Andreas, my husband
He wanted to own a house in Tuscany. He talked his parents into buying an old stone house when he was barely twenty, the same one that the whole family still enjoys today. He wanted to live in America in a wooden house in the mountains. He moved there in his 30s and we got married in our own beautiful house near Lake Tahoe. He wanted to fly airplanes across the United States to see the natural beauty and wonders of our land. He got his licenses in America and we spent eight years exploring beaches, cities, deserts, mountains in our Plane Jane.  He wanted to be a father. He held my hand for eight years while we never gave up on conceiving, and he fed, bathed, and nurtured our daughter round-the-clock by my side for the first three months of her life. We dreamed together of giving our daughter a childhood in Europe.  We three now live on a cobblestone street in an old Art Nouveau building in Europe. He wanted a roaring, sexy Harley Davidson. She is in the garage and he makes exciting roadtrips on his Road King. He is the biggest dreamer-doer that I have ever personally known.



Oprah Winfrey
A fearless, courageous visionary and truth-teller. A giver who built a world-changing enterprise.



Susanne, my mother-in-law
A doctor, who in her seventies took a sailing trip with her girlfriends, all skilled sailors, played the classical music at my wedding accompanied by her son and daughter, cross-country skied with us every year while we lived in Tahoe, continued learning languages until she died, and spent a bulk of every year in her beloved Tuscan home.
Anne, my mother
Vibrancy, energy, positive outlook, charm, dancer, singer, artist, social spark. My mom was the first NFL cheerleader (part of the first  squad for the Washington Redskins in 1954) and has not put the pom-poms down yet. In fact, she performed at half-time for the Redskins this year and has another show this month. She has been my biggest supporter for my entire life, my cheerleader, my encourager, filling me with confidence and positive vision that I should just "go for it!" as she always says.



John, my dad
Rocket Scientist Extraordinaire. I spent my summers in New Mexico with our large family and extended family of NASA scientists and their children, all out there to test the latest rockets my dad and his colleagues designed and built at Goddard Space Flight Center in Maryland. From the first moment my body shook with the deep rumble of the rocket engines taking off to the time I buried him in our family plot when I was sixteen, my dad was an inspiration to me in how he channelled his unbelievable intelligence into one of the most exciting frontiers of the century.









Tante Inge
My husband's aunt, who started a women's art circle 25 years ago that is still strong and vibrant, and of which I was allowed to join. Her house is full of paintings, books, and juicy inspirations.



My Friends
Anne for her entrepreneurial spirit and tenacity with her husband, Michelle for her quiet insights, poetry and access to her emotions, Amy for her commitment to nurturing herself through dance and yoga, Lena for strength and building her own book publishing enterprise, Mary for her courage, Eli for her commitment to family and the community, Chau for her vision and ability to become a spiritual teacher with Thich Nhat Hahn, Julia for her artistic, well-run, organized home pulled off in a light and easy way,  Elizabeth K. for her sensuality, artistic and creative expression through her fashion and home, her entrepreneurial spirit in starting her own business, her courage and strength to survive cancer, her courage to take her three children and leave her heavy marriage to start a new happier life, her ability to love me despite all of my flaws, my disappearances, my truths. 

Intentions for the Dream Journey

Happiness!  I finally started Mondo Beyondo today, the online course that I tried to join in October of 2009 but had to wait for the next offering. I roped in some willing girlfriends from a women's circle over ten years ago and just knowing that they are there, in this journey with me, is so cozy and comforting. Connections.

My daughter is asleep in the living room and my husband is somewhere over the Atlantic, returning to Europe and to us. I have seven candles lit at different heights all around me, something luxurious and delicious that I usually don't do for just for me.

I loved starting with intentions, and I loved reading and connecting to the beautiful souls that shared before I entered the picture. My intentions for the next five weeks of this journey, and beyond, are as follows:

be authentic
trust in myself
listen to my intuition
make space for creativity, inner voice, calmness, discovery
reveal and clarify my dreams
claim my unique power and gifts
celebrate who I am
harness my courage
take action
be free and joyful
dwell in gratitude and abundance


Friday, November 6, 2009

getting closer to my life purpose

For two years, I have been swimming in a sea of wisdom shared by gurus and masters doing their best to teach me what they know about finding one's life purpose. Eckhart Tolle has been my primary guide, as I listened and re-listened to hours of his teachings, reading all of his books, applying the practices. God has never left the scene, guiding me with gentle whispers. I have also studied Thich Nhat Hahn, Martha Beck, Elizabeth Lesser, Wayne Dyer, Jon Kabat Zinn, Marianne Williamson and Deborah Ford. These teachers were generous in their sharing, and I have been soaking it up. Beginning to meditate on a regular basis this year was what I needed to create the stillness to hear my inner guidance system. Tonight it became clear that life purpose is not a job or a career, it is bigger than all that. It is me being me, all the time. Me bringing me to each endeavor. It is listening to the guidance, the God Whispers, and making choices that feel like they are in alignment with my soul's desires.

The Halloween party and trick-or-treating created last week in our neighborhood was bold and fun. We live in Germany. They don't have trick-or-treating. But we did last week- with 14 witches, vampires and goblins visiting 12 homes after a cozy party with glowing jack-o-lanterns. I love Halloween for its magical fun and mystery. The Thanksgiving we are hosting next week with five German families in our home will be a time to share the deep meaning of feasting, ritual, celebration, joy, beauty and thankfulness. Working with my consulting client to increase organizational performance, bringing myself and my true intentions to help and to create feels like what I am meant to be doing right now. Starting the women's  joy journey group to bring women together to play, grow and stretch resonates with my heart. I think I am getting clearer on life purpose, on finding the composite of experiences that points to my North Star.

hesitating to hit the "send" button

Excitement. Fear. Optimism. Hope. Joy. Uncertainty. My body, my stomach, is light and fluttery. I am filled with a range of emotions since I launched the idea in Germany for the new concept that Amy and I have been working on since February.  Drafting the invitation, keeping it in draft, finalizing it, and then sending it to a limited number of my favorite women has propelled me forward on my own journey. I now realize the risk I took in putting myself out there, doing something unusual. I am getting mixed reactions to the invitation. Many very positive, and some complete silence. I am thinking that the silence is coming from not really understanding what I am doing with this group, this joy journey we are calling Life Tastings. Four weeks until the first pilot session in Hannover. The pilot in San Francisco is next week. We are piloting different themes and different play activities, which will give us a robust set of experiences as we take this idea from planning and developing to opening it up for real women to come in.