getting closer to my life purpose

For two years, I have been swimming in a sea of wisdom shared by gurus and masters doing their best to teach me what they know about finding one's life purpose. Eckhart Tolle has been my primary guide, as I listened and re-listened to hours of his teachings, reading all of his books, applying the practices. God has never left the scene, guiding me with gentle whispers. I have also studied Thich Nhat Hahn, Martha Beck, Elizabeth Lesser, Wayne Dyer, Jon Kabat Zinn, Marianne Williamson and Deborah Ford. These teachers were generous in their sharing, and I have been soaking it up. Beginning to meditate on a regular basis this year was what I needed to create the stillness to hear my inner guidance system. Tonight it became clear that life purpose is not a job or a career, it is bigger than all that. It is me being me, all the time. Me bringing me to each endeavor. It is listening to the guidance, the God Whispers, and making choices that feel like they are in alignment with my soul's desires.

The Halloween party and trick-or-treating created last week in our neighborhood was bold and fun. We live in Germany. They don't have trick-or-treating. But we did last week- with 14 witches, vampires and goblins visiting 12 homes after a cozy party with glowing jack-o-lanterns. I love Halloween for its magical fun and mystery. The Thanksgiving we are hosting next week with five German families in our home will be a time to share the deep meaning of feasting, ritual, celebration, joy, beauty and thankfulness. Working with my consulting client to increase organizational performance, bringing myself and my true intentions to help and to create feels like what I am meant to be doing right now. Starting the women's  joy journey group to bring women together to play, grow and stretch resonates with my heart. I think I am getting clearer on life purpose, on finding the composite of experiences that points to my North Star.

hesitating to hit the "send" button

Excitement. Fear. Optimism. Hope. Joy. Uncertainty. My body, my stomach, is light and fluttery. I am filled with a range of emotions since I launched the idea in Germany for the new concept that Amy and I have been working on since February.  Drafting the invitation, keeping it in draft, finalizing it, and then sending it to a limited number of my favorite women has propelled me forward on my own journey. I now realize the risk I took in putting myself out there, doing something unusual. I am getting mixed reactions to the invitation. Many very positive, and some complete silence. I am thinking that the silence is coming from not really understanding what I am doing with this group, this joy journey we are calling Life Tastings. Four weeks until the first pilot session in Hannover. The pilot in San Francisco is next week. We are piloting different themes and different play activities, which will give us a robust set of experiences as we take this idea from planning and developing to opening it up for real women to come in.